Ok. I remembered.

I remembered what I was going to say.

the other day i was going to get something, but i couldn't remember what it was. while standing in the middle of the room, trying to remember, i started to think of all of the things I forgot to do or had yet to do; thoughts going through my head so fast that i was frozen. i couldn't move. my eyelids started getting heavy. i went to lean on the counter and realized that I was suddenly exhaused, though my heart was pounding and i felt a little dizzy.

I stopped and I took a look at what was going on, felt the words zinging through my head (and the guilt of all of the things left undone) and I said to myself - ok, i need to give my brain something to focus on."

i picked up some knitting, started counting the stitches as i knit them, and within 5 or 10 minutes i felt WORLDS better. This is the first time i was able to end that guilty-panicky feeling without a nap or an inappropriate catharsis.